If you have ever watched the 1939 classic film, “The Wizard of Oz” you most certainly remember the scene when Dorothy and her dog, Toto, first arrive in the Land of Oz. After landing in this strange world, Dorothy, taking in the unusual sights and sounds, says to her dog, “Toto, I’ve a feeling we’re not in Kansas anymore.”
As someone who has struggled with weight my entire adult life and many years ago joined the ranks of the morbidly obese, I often feel like Dorothy. I live in a different world than my right size friends and family. I see things differently, I experience things differently and, like Dorothy, I desperately want to go back and live in the world that they are able to experience.
At 44 years old and a perfect 10 out of 10 on the Bright Line Eating® food addiction susceptibility scale, this is the year that I finally had to acknowledge that I am a food addict. But this was not an easy identity for me to accept.
It wasn’t hard because the signs of food addiction weren’t there – because there were plenty! I’m 5’1″ and recently topped the scales at 339lbs. When I start eating a certain foods (sugars, flour and fats) I can have a very difficult time stopping – especially if I’m by myself. Even after having eaten a significant amount of food I sometimes honestly have difficulty determining if I’m still hungry or full. I can also get cravings so strong that I’d be willing to sell my children to satisfy (by the way, no one wants to buy a teenager).
No, the hard part about accepting my identity as a food addict was that the implications were downright painful to accept. If I was going to acknowledge the fact that I was a food addict, I knew that meant that parts of my life would need to change forever. It would mean recognizing that no diet was ever going to help me in the long run. And it would mean giving up most of the food and drinks that have provided so much comfort and pleasure my entire life.
I used to joke with my wife that I had a mistress and her name was Little Debbie. I now see that there is much more truth in that statement than I ever realized. Food has been my close friend with whom I experience the world. It has brought me such joy and was one of my highest priorities (sadly sometimes my highest priority). I had a hard time, and still do, imagining celebrations, travel, getting together with friends or going to the movies without eating many of the foods that, for me, naturally go along with all of those experiences.
The Journey Begins
If I was ever to get back to a healthy weight again, I knew I would need something that would help me beat my food addiction and help me make a permanent change. Thankfully, my search led me to a Bright Line Eating®. I read the book, signed up for the boot camp and I lost my first 50 pounds.
This also started me on a journey to learn more about health and nutrition and the psychology of weight loss. I started reading blogs, books and academic journals to see what I could learn that would be helpful to people like me. This blog is about sharing with you my journey and what I am learning along the way.
So if you are like me – significantly overweight for many years, highly susceptible to food addiction and a long history of failed diets and weight loss programs, then this blog is for you. Here I will provide information, encouragement and support for anyone using or considering the Bright Line Eating® program. And, you will also find research based tips, tricks and strategies that can help you on your weight loss journey.